what a fucking night-cd called me at 6 30 and asked me to be the 2nd speaker at whatever..a mtg i am so scared of and about 100 or more people go to…then ch called and started mocking me and asking why i didnt tell him i was speaking.
i ended up in tears before i spoke..i was so worked up and nervous.
it sucked. then ch’s ex gf came and gave me a hug and then as i spoke i felt so good and relxed and free.
jg was there, as was ah ad gk jam etc taylor..everyoe said amazing kind things before and after…..i cried on my walk home.
hard.
i felt like i really saw the light of day on things as i left that mtg and realized what i am capable of.
i may not be a career person with some big sucess…but i am sober and i am good at being sober. i am good at telling others about what it is like. and i am great at having fun in sobriety.
for all this i am grateful