how funy my life has become. or already was.i just get it now. like , i got it before….but only in a sarcastic selfeffacing scoff. now i belly laugh and feel rather tickled at times…by seemingly random events and characters that seem to sprout up so unexpectedly…just in the nic of time. before it felt like the joke was on me in a mean spirited way…and the cast of charcters around me were all almost always villians masquerading in cool down to earth clothing -now i see it is the opposite . i embrace these seeming villians. and they all seem to be turning out o be eerily famliar bundles of love tucked under the scary villian thing.
i guess ihad to live my first thirty years being the innocent who was disilluisioned and dissapointed all the time …to become this somewhat guarded ,defensive and easily angered person to start being able to withstand the intial trials and tribulations that lead to the gold mines of human beings i have surounding me.
damn.feels good.
there isnt another shoe to drop…they all came off and i like my toughsouled barefoot exsitence that withstands the crunchy sharp rocks and gravel to eventually be standing in the warm silkysoft stuff.
it’s cocktiail hour in my life.