thought my allergies were bad..tried to trick myself that at the bdb sale i was having allergies..but as it turned out on saturday -i was fluing again.
not too bad,just snotty.
strange events happened -not that they happened to me directly or that i even hangout w.those that did exp. these events…but thought alot about some friendships and how naive i am.
girls, and the way we are taught to deal with each other , can end up being fucking mean .
i feel fine and relieved that the obligations of certain friendships arent in my life.
but i still feel sad and disappointed.
but i am trying to not think too much….
Every 7 years, a friend said the other day in aemail, are when changes etc happen. the life cycles i guess.
7 years ago was dec 1997. living in “sober livingByTheSea’ had been there since sept 4th.
first time since i was at strathcona park lodge doing outdoor leadership, that i had structure in my life.’

i liked it, i think, but i was getting restless.
my mom and dad came down for xmas. they came the 25th, iwent to mammoth with john for a couple days then met them.
it was weird and felt like they were visiting me at boardingschool or collegeor something.

back to present day, joe_on_the_fone had a surprise bday for jessica last night..went.
finally met dr’s gf – she is dr’s type(physically) to a T
apparently she is quite jealous, in general, so i have been cut out completely..save for last month or so..as it seems he is trying to get out of this thing.
fun cause i got to hang with rich, whom i always love visiting .
he is married with a baby boy living in malibu .
his wife is very interesting and i enjoy her alot-although she wasnt there lastnight, so i got alot of reminiscing and catchup time with richard roll.
he’s funny
comparing his attitude to ..
cO’n arived and annoyed me terribly with condescending concern.
he is gay. he is the type that has always bugged me and i ve known this from my first visit with him.
i just forgot as hes been in NY for so long.now i remeber.
this sort of attitude is EXACTLY what has me out of the llop.
so i guess im grateful.
thanks cO’n

tonight ,for a rare sunday night change in events:
i’ll be going to go to see the spazmaticks at DragonFly