god..i ran into the og crush from around the corner…kevin?. so hot and sexy (to me)…he sat right next to me and ..well nothing..i just think he is hot
and dl and mjk are cominghome today and ill be seing them in a few hours..so i dont have to sit in this false place of mourniing over ch not being able to hangout ..etc i have other options .
i am too tired of ch twisting my emotions around and saying ridiculous things..like”i dont want to see each other EVERYNIGHT” oh my gawd…we r lucky if we get two nights in a week. fer fucks sake. he has a warped set of archives…he also is sneaky and secretive and keeps me seperated from his world . i dont get taken/asked/introduced to anyone with him..im pretty much his lttle sleepoverdate and thats it..i’m over his behaviour.
god i just realized how crazy it is to think its ok that he treats me this way. unless he shows up with a major transformation of behaviour and an open heart..i m not playing anymore