went to urth this am w/ m. cute boy there. sooo cute. last week,at dinner, dp said that i was worse than any guy she knew in respect to checking people out..
hmm, i really never think of myself that way. but i guess i am . i mean i am single. but i ‘m that way whether i’m single or not, i guess. wrote jb this morn. she is in mnnpl , working for a few months. i always wonder if she and z talk about me. i actually wonder all the time who z talks about me with -cause i know she does. that is the way she is.
c was there this am , and he started smoking again. i get a sick pleasure from that.i think ap is coming home today from ny. scared to tell him i am smoking again. i feel like he is my dad , sometimes.
mom arrives tomorrow. want to make the house really nice for when she gets here.
going to go to cb now and get a hot drink, cause it is freezing today.