my life is getting so weird. i went to the lc this am, had breakfast w/michelle and her ‘gang’ of friends.
as i sat in the cabin , i thught abut being where i am . this place in my head . it’s definetly a differentt state of mind than any i have known.
meaning i don’t care that i am not in contact with my old ‘group’. i am finding this nonattachment relieving and although i am lonely and bored at times -.
it is giving me a perspective on who i trully am. and who i want to become.
i think that i want to find my true right path in the world and work is the starting point. teaching myself these new programs is a step in the right direction, if only for my enjoyment at present.
i guess the signs that those ‘others’ -as i ‘ll now refer to my old group of friends-were not helping me were always there. i just chose to ignore them.it can be so much easier to hang out with assholes sometimes , if only because you don’t have to look at your own life due to judging everyone else.
i guess i was just ready to start activating my destiny.