bloggerlittle butterfly like anxiety going on for me right now.
feel very fearful.
scared of what/
recent correspondance?
weird how i fall into this state of thinking/feeling when someone steps into my life in an intimate manner and i feel like i don’t have control of the situation….
fuck. what can i do to change this. i have become so contented with being the ‘celebate’ one and with htis feeling of no power loss because of it- i am in terror of the possibilities of what could happen if i lose myself in someone else…like my last situation fucked me up so much that i am not willing to risk feelling passionate about anything/one anymore…….