sorta odd day. not bad odd..just off kilter a bit.. woke went to the cabin. brkfst at urth…then dropped shit off for als then wnet to tm office..mtg with ch and finn. good . again told ch that i when he wanted to call me he could. i was willing and wanted him in my life but i am tired of being rejected or told “maybe’ everytime i ask him to do smething…so we slved it by me saying if he wants to hangout he has to call and ask me from now on..i hope he realizes that i always want him around practically.. boys r back from no’s met us at the oneohone. so did cf
and rf and hil.ch sent me some super endearing yet unrepliable twoways…feel tired and sad. but i am looking forward to a sleepover this weekend