feel disillusioned with certain people. see behaviour that is gross(to me) the blatant ways people ,manipulate to be around fame and power in this town is gross. if people are starstruck and innocent and cute about meeting peo[ple..its fine . when they act nonchalant and then behave like totally differnt people once around the fame or whatever..i get ill. especially when it is people i have chosen to bring into my small protective world. yuck. i know i am not making sense but i feel alone and ready for some really good stuff to unfold in my world -direrctly to me and have signs of where i should go and how and when