vegas puts my body in a weird state; i am very anxiety riddled..
yet about nuthing at all..(except perhaps , mom)has ‘happened’
yet,i constantly feel as though i am on the verge of some …thing….?an idea ? a boy? ..great party? /creative burst? …… something…but the reality seems to be that i just want to get to the gambling..All the anxiety seems to stem from competitve emotions that are tri.ggered shsss. guess all it means is:i love winning,,,i never thought i did ,,,but the feeling of winning against all odds..i feel like i am ….invincable..ish